Hello, everyone. I am new here. I entered this site this afternoon, and happily find that there are many pianists/ musicians here. What I am addressing at the moment is the reason why I will never learn to play piano. It is very simply, because I love Chopin.
I am a psychology senior and I’m applying for Graduate school. In choosing schools I was once attracted by music therapy, but when I learned that a music therapist has to take courses like piano, guitar and other music theories, I gave up. No, I will never learn to play piano. I love him, I admire him, so I’d like to take a profession which is completely different from my lover’s. I want to worship him as god. How he managed to use his ten fingers and whole body to make out such wonderful music? What is the underlying theories of music?( I myself play violin and can read notes but I know nothing about orthodox music theories) I like the mystery, the strangeness. What he plays, is something I love very much, but I never know how he plays, which is the most enjoyable part.
Besides, I don’t want to be a potential competitor of my love. Did you hear the story of the famous French sculpture Rodin and his lover Camille? Camille is a talented girl and her sculpture works are also very excellent. She was once Rodin’s student. As she matured in her sculpture career, Rodin grew jealous gradually. He refused to help her to open exhibition. Their relationship grew worse every day( there are also many other factors of course), he finally ignored her. Camille was at last sent into mental health hospital and died there.
Personally, I think a couple taking the same vocation is a very stupid thing.( if I have offended any one who falls in love with a craft brother I want to say that I respect your choice, please don’t be annoyed.) Imagine I was one of the students of Chopin( I am not that lucky but just suppose I am), I would feel painful when I am aware of the fact that I am a potential competitor of my lover. I might even play better than him one day( I know I cannot but let’s just suppose) , and thinking about this scenario really hurts my heart. No, I want him to be greater than my in an area so I can enjoy worshiping him. Of course, I might outdo him in other areas or even many areas, but please just leave one thing that he can do far more greatly than me, let me adore him, because that is the way I love somebody. Without worship, I cannot love. And without love, oh my God, can you imaging a person without love? His/Her world must be dreadful.
So that is the reason why I never study piano. In a word, I love Chopin, deeply. Let me live in this eternal connection between he and me, let me listen to his music every day as I am doing now, forever and ever…..
Believe me, no civilized man ever regrets a pleasure, and no uncivilized man ever knows what a pleasure is